This painting is about my small ideas of Gods will, the thought while painting it was that i see all these different options (the red boxes) and I try to somehow decipher which is Gods will for me, and maybe all along all the options are his will, he sees the bigger picture, that all those options in the red boxes are all his will. Together they make the shape in the middle......... Maybe? Maybe not.
An old Cherokee is teaching his grandson about life. "A fight is going on inside me," he said to the boy.
"It is a terrible fight and it is between two wolves. One is evil - he is anger, envy, sorrow, regret, greed, arrogance, self-pity, guilt, resentment, inferiority, lies, false pride, superiority, and ego." He continued, "The other is good - he is joy, peace, love, hope, serenity, humility, kindness, benevolence, empathy, generosity, truth, compassion, and faith. The same fight is going on inside you - and inside every other person, too."
The grandson thought about it for a minute and then asked his grandfather, "Which wolf will win?"
The old Cherokee simply replied, "The one you feed."
This picture represents how I worry. I feel like I am constantly being reminded or trying to figure out what next. so these colors that move toward the circle in the middle represent worries about the future. There are some colors (worries) that are unable to enter that circle. I see the yellow which blocks these worries as faith. and currently my little faith is only blocking some of these worries. I imagine the more I learn to have faith that God will take care of me, that yellow will continue to enclose that circle, and stop those worries.
This painting came from my thoughts the day my friends Hope and Zach left. It truly was great having them here, It was refreshing but also challenging. I felt after they left that I could move in two directions. One that was looking forward to the future, which could keep me from truly being here and now. Or I could praise God for the time we had and continue to live in the now. That's a pretty simple explanantion of real conflict I still struggle with. The idea of moving in a positive direction or a negative direction. I think this painting could somehow be a guide to most of lifes situations, that when something happens to you, your faced with the "and now.."
THis painting was inspired by a lyric in a Manchester Orchestra song, "God my God where have you been ?" I was originally going to write those words on each of the lines, but I haven't yet, so we'll see. Anyone have an opinion?